Hey thank you all for your nice words and some points to think over. At first, the criticism isn't the point why i decided to finish my work (or why i don't upload anything new).
As artist you allways need to handle with criticism and after a while you learn that there are different ways to handle it. It give positive and negative. To positive one. As example: Someone told you "Hey, your work shows me some talent, but i would change that or draw it in that way" and he/she show you on your work what he/she meant. The negative: "Your work is crap, stolen by other real artists. You can't draw and your english skills looks like you are at Kindergarten etc...." Normaly i ignore option two. I work houres on every picture, i create them in my mind and draw it over Illustrator, Flash or Photoshop. For a simple Flash animation i need months. I also know that my english skill isn't perfect, but i work on it. And on my work, on my friendships or here everyone understand what i want to say, maybe not with the best grammer but everyone know that it isn't easy to learn a language without any help and i am proud about it that i got so far with my selfmade skills.
No why i decide to finish it all was the hater mails. After i upload a picture or animation i know that a lot of people watch it, some of them put them in their favorite lists and only a small part of that people let a comment on it, that is oke for me. I know that i have some reputation, i know some of you people after we have talked, i know some artists because we talked and shared our works to see what the other one would change on it. But what i not like is to get hate mails. My e-mail adress was open for everyone, not only for commissions but to get mails with pure hate, that hurts alot. I know the world isn't nice, as ex Soldier and lone fighter i know it perfectly. But if you get mails with something like that: "Amazeroth you should be killed for crappy shit like this!". we can see how you would feal. I can tell you: That sucks. I send this mail to my lawyer. the other e-mails was harsh to read but all had the same tenor: My work is shit, my english is crap, my work is stolen (it isn't, i work on every picture 16-20 houres, on every animation months) etc. And that hurts in two houres 342 times. I gave my best, for clients from commissions, earlier time for requests or complete ideas from me to bring it to the people who liked transformation arts.
At least; i often hear that my works are simple. Yes they are. It is my style. Years ago as i switched from anime works to western style (2002/2003 after i lost my complete life here in Germany the first time) i think about the qualitiy from comics or animations. Sure, i could draw complex work and let it colouring from a pro. But i didn't want this. I want something that looks clear and easy but with a high quality. Something that everyone could watch and understand, that is why i draw my works as i did. Not so complex as BustArtists Comics, not so scary as Mamabliss Pictures but with my own charm. I was an artist that draw with clear black lines and i decided to do it further but bether. I also saw that some artists break with the community, they lost the feed. The only point why they wrote something here or at another places was to make some comercials ala :"Look at that Cover or single Picture samples. That is from my newest work....you can buy it on XY.com" I want to hold the feeling. Sure i make comercials too but i left other comments or say something without the background that i want to sell. It wasn't positiv every time but that is normal, but i stay in touch with the base. ANother part was my prices for my commissions. Some say they was to high. Yes they was. I watched what other good artists want for their work and subtracted 10-20 percents from it. It was over the pricedumping with 5$ for a complete picture ( a work that the client mostly pays and mostly never get something) and cheaper as the professionals. I got a lot of commissions and at this moment i worked for that person. We talked and i get him or her on her nerves with the smallest detail. If he or she didn't like what i create i changed it so long that he or she like it and at this time the client had to pay for it, not earlier. If someone didn't like completly what i createt i would destroy the work and skip the commission, but that never happen
I don't knot that i return some day with my work, but i am still a part of the community. I read and wrote in the treads. If something want something to know, need a tipp about some drawings/animations, is a beginner in the scene or have a commission idea that he/she don't want to upload on the internet, my email
amazeroth2002@yahoo.de is active.
At friday i got a very hard headache but today i am very happy after i read all the nice comments here, some of you send me an mail too. Thank you all for this. The world is hard, a lot of people are hard, but we are the Transformation Community; We don't need to be hard to each other. Some draw, some write and other watch, we all share the love to the Transformation in seperate ways (Breast Expanion, Weight Gain, Shrinking, Age Re/Progressive, Transgender etc etc) that's all us
Love and respect,
Jim aka Amazeroth