[HC-911]

Amazeroth...

First of all, I am truly and deeply sorry. I apologize on behalf of all those 300 and some-odd people that have wronged you.

But I disagree. Hatred and sorrow, all that does is fester. Getting angry at these people accomplishes nothing. Feeling saddened and rejected doesn't either.

I know more than anyone what it feels like to be disapproved of, rejected and hated.

I don't have much artistic talent. I'm not charming or witty. I don't crack jokes, just my voice when trying to talk to somebody.

All I have is my English skills, and even that's not perfect, not enough to give me any degree of success or praise.

I don't know whether you lot would consider me old or not, but to be the better part of 3 decades old and look back to ask "Was I ever appreciated? Did anyone care?" and the answer coming back is "No."

It does hurt, bro. It hurts a lot. And to throw your fists up. To punch a punching bag or a wall or break a cheap piece of pottery? Go ahead. Vent some frustration.

But listen to me, and this is the point of my message: Get back onthat horse, man. Maybe it's not the prettiest horse. Maybe it's seen more than its share of cruelty.

But I for one get back up there. I do things my way. And I do my best to spread doing things the right way. That is: Being nice and polite and doing my best both for myself and others, despite all the pain and hardship along the way.

If you're looking for a reason, something to make it worthwhile, then consider this: "If I'm nice, that's one less angry stupid-ass message going out into the world." One less jerky gesture, eh?

These guys can be mean and disapprove. But we won't, huh?

Yeah. That's my message.

And I use to think that perhaps the best thing was to confront these people, show them why they're so hurtful. But that doesn't work in real life and it works less on the internet, all that does is set you up for more pain and misery.

So do your best to smile and say "Today's a good day. There's good people in the world and I'm going to do (this) because it's fun and I enjoy it."

That's why I write. And I figure if even one person. Just 1 other person likes what I do, then I AM successful.

Cheers.