[ailovestogrow]

This thread is not for the faint of heart or stomach. Please, no pictures or graphic descriptions attached to replies. Think of this as a Therapy/Support Group thread.

I had a moment in my life years ago where I became so traumatized it still haunts my nightmares to this day. It is one thing to make jokes about Rule 34 and say there is something out there for everything, it is quite another to accidentally fall down that rabbit...hole and find something truly horrifying.

The problem is the process community runs into some of this stuff more often than not, living on the edge between body horror and just watching girls grow. Species 2, Cronenberg-esque fan fiction, etc. Maybe you were curious about a Blueberry Girl comic, only to find her exploding at the end.

No judgements here, this is me trying to find a place to get over my own trauma while also mildly curious about what others think is too far. Everyone has a breaking point, a line that you might even be afraid to think about. Yours might even be something as seemingly tame as "peeling an orange" porn or as horrifying as "peeling a person's skin like an orange" porn.

And this isn't about trying to find out what turns a person off. I don't care for Tarantino levels of foot fetish, but feet don't terrify me. I also scream when I watch a horror movie, but I'm not trying to get off on a slasher flick. This is looking at the realm of erotica material that has made you want to physically vomit or has you losing sleep over it years later.

I hope my curiosity doesn't take it too far like it sometimes does.

Anyway, I'll start off. About 25 years ago (yes, I'm an old woman) I was innocently browsing storyboards when I came across what looked like an interesting bit of erotica. This was before tags and lockouts on message boards were common. I won't go into details, but it involved a ray gun and...well, let's just say the end result was a very explicit bit of trypophobia porn. It included crude photoshopped images.

*shiver*

*internal mental screaming*

I know I'm opening a can of worms here, but this does actually help me as an author. I don't see anything wrong with other certain areas of kinks in the community, but maybe there are those who are absolutely bug-nuts over anything involving - or example - egg-laying. Also, what little I know about psychology says that sharing fears is an important part of the process, and aren't we all about the process here?