Question: did you ever met... - Page 2

vincent_richter · 08-14-2013

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Originally Posted by CuddleBeam

...And for the record, Coramorgana, I haven't kissed a girl in five years T-T.

Forever single.

Ay, Casanova had to be a writer and adventurer before his name could ever be synonymous with one-night stands.

Get out there and experience life, strapping Castellano!

CuddleBeam · 08-14-2013

Well. I've got a problem: I've no idea how. And now comes Cuddlebeams ranting on his lovelife because he wants to write for a while.

Edit: I've noticed that I derail hard here. Meh. Oh well.

The only relationship I've been in (and that I idealize excessively) lasted two years of "flirting" (I have no better word to describe it. We wanted to be together, it was a secret that everybody knew for all that time.). It was so fucking magical, so fucking special, we didn't want to take the next step. We were milking the moment. Milking it hard.

Then, we were together "officially" for about a year. Yet, after all of that, I'm still a fucking virgin. Why do you ask? Well. We went as slow as snails with everything. After the first year, we could as much as lean into each other watching movies. At the second year, non-on-the-lips-pecks were the maximum (however, hugging 24/7 was allowed for some reason. It was great, considering how much of a cuddlebug I am). Then, at some point, about after two years and a half, we managed to peck on the lips. Nothing more than that. Because we broke up for the better. We had to go separate ways, I had to go Madrid to study Engineering, and she to hum bla bla hum hum and some other things.

Then, at uni, were everyone is a guy, I didn't get anywhere my first year - I still liked my ex. My second year I didn't do anything either - because I was depressed my first year, I didn't relate to the key people on my second year. Ergo, no girls for Cuddlebeam. On my third year, all of a sudden five girls and two guys join the student council I was part of since my first year (I'm thier badass makeshift lawyer). Just so happens that two of them already have boyfriends and the other three are lesbians.

Fuck.

But! One of the lesbians became a very good friend of mine (lets call her Suki: hyperactive, butch, yet motherly), and a friend of hers (lets call her Martha: Geeky, isolated and very socially awkward) fell in love with me. I didn't notice that until too late. Behind my back, Suki tried everything she could to get Martha with me, which should be easy, since I'm a sitting duck all day in the council room either napping, studying, or on the computer. But there is a problem with Martha. She was a clone of my ex, but without: looks, social charm or conversation. So dispite Suki tried to put us together, I wouldn't stick. For example, I would talk and talk (I talk a lot IRL) and Martha would just nod, or make the most dialogue-killing comments. It got stale, quick. But then Martha lended me her drawing tablet after she saw me photoshopping the non-questionable drawings of my Chounyuu VN at the council room. I was really glad, and by that time, Suki had noticed that I hadn't noticed at all Martha's interest in me. Suki started to become more obvious my glareing daggers at me whenever I ignored Martha, or forcing situations for the two of us to be together in the most obvious manners. I finally noticed when those things happened. And I was like Oh hell no. Oh hell no, motherfucking no. It didn't help either that during all of this time, Suki had been talking a lot to be and drawing information about my preferances to then relay them to Martha. During those chats, I started to like Suki. Which is bad, because, she is gay. Anyways. Towards the end of the uni year, a guy in the council went out of the blue confessing that he liked BDSM a lot, then this other guy confessed a feet fetish, so I went along and said that I write odd stories. Later, Suki tells me that Martha writes Yaoi stories. Like insane, rape-ridden Yaoi stories. I got interested, but that would mean having to interact with a Martha I wanted to let down without explicitly letting her down. But no worries. Suki arranged for Martha to come to the council room the next day in makeup and the most girly outfit I've seen her in with "Ask me about the yaoi stories, Cuddlebeam?" written all over her face. I slipped out of the council room as soon as I could, thinking: "What the fuck should Cuddlebeam do?"

Of course, I could've gone with Martha for some giggles and sex then leave her like a used tissue. But I've got honor. It might be stupid or whatever, and I might be better without it, but if I don't like a girl I won't take advantage of her. For example, I'd love to make out with Suki if I was invited too, but not with Martha even if she begged me. I'm just that kind of person.

That's going to keep me a virgin until I'm 40, isn't it?

vincent_richter · 08-14-2013

Sigh. So you have honor, but no interest. Something about her squicked you out. That's not so unreasonable. What's unreasonable is pretending that she's the only option there, when you have to have seen the thousands of other women on campus. Seriously, find one in a class you attend, and get over yourself for a few minutes. Ask if she'd like to grab drinks or a movie some time, but start slow. You can make an intellectual connection off of shared interests, though I hear many of the most exhilarating combinations are those you would least expect.

The end result being this: if you never put yourself out there, nobody will ever find you. I've not ever been shot down in flames, but I've had the same results: everyone leaves. I'm trying to fix what's wrong with me that makes that happen, but I have no clue where to even begin. It's a demon I struggle with every waking hour of my life. It's left me a bitter, spent shell of a man.

Don't be me. Take a chance; even if you get slapped, it's better than never knowing for sure.

coramorgana · 08-14-2013

i can understand you, i'm very shy person when i'm interested in a woman, but sometimes you must go for it and try.
in my case my curriculum is very scarse. I've been with 5 girls in my entire life, two of then have been formal girlfriends, with the first were together 8 years. i haven't kissed anymore and i'm now single, but this can't be a problem.

i like you believe in my honour and ethical facts, but sometimes everyone needs take a rest a bring a chance. if a girl likes you give her an oportunity without play with her feelings, maybe you start to like her, and if this don't happen, hey you are addult and can talk the things

sobretodo tranquilo y sin prisas tio, que igual que me han dicho a mi durante mis muchisimas ralladuras en epocas de solteria desesperada: cuando te tenga que llegar te llegara.

08-14-2013	#14
CuddleBeam DO THE IMPOSSIBLE Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: Spain Posts: 872	Re: Question: did you ever met... Well. I've got a problem: I've no idea how. And now comes Cuddlebeams ranting on his lovelife because he wants to write for a while. Edit: I've noticed that I derail hard here. Meh. Oh well. The only relationship I've been in (and that I idealize excessively) lasted two years of "flirting" (I have no better word to describe it. We wanted to be together, it was a secret that everybody knew for all that time.). It was so fucking magical, so fucking special, we didn't want to take the next step. We were milking the moment. Milking it hard. Then, we were together "officially" for about a year. Yet, after all of that, I'm still a fucking virgin. Why do you ask? Well. We went as slow as snails with everything. After the first year, we could as much as lean into each other watching movies. At the second year, non-on-the-lips-pecks were the maximum (however, hugging 24/7 was allowed for some reason. It was great, considering how much of a cuddlebug I am). Then, at some point, about after two years and a half, we managed to peck on the lips. Nothing more than that. Because we broke up for the better. We had to go separate ways, I had to go Madrid to study Engineering, and she to hum bla bla hum hum and some other things. Then, at uni, were everyone is a guy, I didn't get anywhere my first year - I still liked my ex. My second year I didn't do anything either - because I was depressed my first year, I didn't relate to the key people on my second year. Ergo, no girls for Cuddlebeam. On my third year, all of a sudden five girls and two guys join the student council I was part of since my first year (I'm thier badass makeshift lawyer). Just so happens that two of them already have boyfriends and the other three are lesbians. Fuck. But! One of the lesbians became a very good friend of mine (lets call her Suki: hyperactive, butch, yet motherly), and a friend of hers (lets call her Martha: Geeky, isolated and very socially awkward) fell in love with me. I didn't notice that until too late. Behind my back, Suki tried everything she could to get Martha with me, which should be easy, since I'm a sitting duck all day in the council room either napping, studying, or on the computer. But there is a problem with Martha. She was a clone of my ex, but without: looks, social charm or conversation. So dispite Suki tried to put us together, I wouldn't stick. For example, I would talk and talk (I talk a lot IRL) and Martha would just nod, or make the most dialogue-killing comments. It got stale, quick. But then Martha lended me her drawing tablet after she saw me photoshopping the non-questionable drawings of my Chounyuu VN at the council room. I was really glad, and by that time, Suki had noticed that I hadn't noticed at all Martha's interest in me. Suki started to become more obvious my glareing daggers at me whenever I ignored Martha, or forcing situations for the two of us to be together in the most obvious manners. I finally noticed when those things happened. And I was like Oh hell no. Oh hell no, motherfucking no. It didn't help either that during all of this time, Suki had been talking a lot to be and drawing information about my preferances to then relay them to Martha. During those chats, I started to like Suki. Which is bad, because, she is gay. Anyways. Towards the end of the uni year, a guy in the council went out of the blue confessing that he liked BDSM a lot, then this other guy confessed a feet fetish, so I went along and said that I write odd stories. Later, Suki tells me that Martha writes Yaoi stories. Like insane, rape-ridden Yaoi stories. I got interested, but that would mean having to interact with a Martha I wanted to let down without explicitly letting her down. But no worries. Suki arranged for Martha to come to the council room the next day in makeup and the most girly outfit I've seen her in with "Ask me about the yaoi stories, Cuddlebeam?" written all over her face. I slipped out of the council room as soon as I could, thinking: "What the fuck should Cuddlebeam do?" Of course, I could've gone with Martha for some giggles and sex then leave her like a used tissue. But I've got honor. It might be stupid or whatever, and I might be better without it, but if I don't like a girl I won't take advantage of her. For example, I'd love to make out with Suki if I was invited too, but not with Martha even if she begged me. I'm just that kind of person. That's going to keep me a virgin until I'm 40, isn't it? __________________ Thank you everyone! My Deviantart: http://cuddle-beam.deviantart.com/ Last edited by CuddleBeam; 08-14-2013 at 05:48 AM.

08-14-2013	#15
vincent_richter ミンナニナイショダヨ Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: St. Canard Posts: 6,091	Re: Question: did you ever met... Sigh. So you have honor, but no interest. Something about her squicked you out. That's not so unreasonable. What's unreasonable is pretending that she's the only option there, when you have to have seen the thousands of other women on campus. Seriously, find one in a class you attend, and get over yourself for a few minutes. Ask if she'd like to grab drinks or a movie some time, but start slow. You can make an intellectual connection off of shared interests, though I hear many of the most exhilarating combinations are those you would least expect. The end result being this: if you never put yourself out there, nobody will ever find you. I've not ever been shot down in flames, but I've had the same results: everyone leaves. I'm trying to fix what's wrong with me that makes that happen, but I have no clue where to even begin. It's a demon I struggle with every waking hour of my life. It's left me a bitter, spent shell of a man. Don't be me. Take a chance; even if you get slapped, it's better than never knowing for sure. __________________ If you're not outraged, you're not paying attention.

08-14-2013	#16
coramorgana Frequent Poster Join Date: Aug 2008 Posts: 349	Re: Question: did you ever met... i can understand you, i'm very shy person when i'm interested in a woman, but sometimes you must go for it and try. in my case my curriculum is very scarse. I've been with 5 girls in my entire life, two of then have been formal girlfriends, with the first were together 8 years. i haven't kissed anymore and i'm now single, but this can't be a problem. i like you believe in my honour and ethical facts, but sometimes everyone needs take a rest a bring a chance. if a girl likes you give her an oportunity without play with her feelings, maybe you start to like her, and if this don't happen, hey you are addult and can talk the things sobretodo tranquilo y sin prisas tio, que igual que me han dicho a mi durante mis muchisimas ralladuras en epocas de solteria desesperada: cuando te tenga que llegar te llegara.